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Shame of Existence

by Days of Light

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Isn't it a shame All them promises never fulfilled The dreams left abandoned Festering inside, growing into dark roots Tears, sweat, the salt for the earth The smoke burning lungs and eyes When fate caught up The time stood still But nothing changed Nothing was spoken out loud Words were left hanging in the air Shame that you believed, That you could someday Dig yourself out Tears, sweat, the salt for the earth The smoke burning lungs and eyes When fate caught up The time stood still But nothing changed Now that you’ve gone And cursed your home for ages to come Wouldn't it be a shame To stand at the end Shrouded in bitterness The end will be still far from here To stand there little straighter than now... Yet everything you’ve done Weighs more than the years Everything you've done for The salting of the earth
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Never have I given in Never surrendered So easily before In arms of resentment Projecting an image of self Drowned in ambrosia Lashing out in violence Finding it was someone else The endless walks through night And reocurring dreams Woven together in mist And in morning's lament The bitter chalk of understanding Souring the friendliest face Groups of broken people Again to be thrown aside Shame of existence Repeating the same mistake Forcing want over will Safe within my solitude Burning my fears away With each degree of fever And glass that is overturned Late at night I watch through the smoke How the constellations turn When cold mists start to gather I shake my fist at the skies Shame of existence Repeating the same mistake Forcing want over will How much time still remains Until the tides turn again? And the black waves Reach for my back Have I reached far or high enough? But nothing seems to ease the strain Grasping at the last straw
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Fate 05:12
On occasion I’ve been tempted by fate With nowhere to go, no means to escape But it’s hard to reach in to your soul Finding only nothingness Trying to surrender yourself To a tailored view of the world Beginning begets the end Noble outcome pays for the sacrifice The road is straight as an arrow As clean and straight as it is narrow And may no doubts under the feet Break your run or bruise the knees Acts unjust or malicious intent Pave the way ahead just like they’re meant And if you stepped astray and fell Lying there you are sure to find Unshakable certainty One must call it fate To struggle against the truth That the path is not a one An easy thing to believe, that you were right all along For all this toil and sacrifice perhaps there’s a kingdom come But for all the good and righteous, throughout the ages and domains Scarred, debased, worn down by time Never got their price for their... Unshakable certainty One must call it fate To struggle against the truth That the path is not a one Did you deserve to live? Did you deserve to succeed? Did you deserve the die this way? Did you deserve to suffer this fate?
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Here is always peace Here lie the dreams you had After all the wasted years one has grown content For keeping themselves in a leash, just getting by Wounding themselves again and again and again Satisfied that the scars will uphold the calm Sometimes I dreamt of the prison Content to find myself in I used to walk the line But now I just dream After all it can take just a few bad hits Or just a lifetime of constant and steady abuse One gets terrified of unpredictable failures Likely to find his solace in bleak standstill Sometimes I dreamt of this prison Content to find myself in I used to walk the line But now I just dream Here is always peace Here lie the dreams you had Some day you might go on But now stay
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Memory Game 04:56
Oh, how do you remember those last weeks It’s been so long I am not sure I can All I do remember was the months after that When I was too sick to do nothing else Broken of heart and filled to the brim But that’s not how it went... Oh, I guess I was hurting all along Caught myself in a painful haze Doubling on my standards and doubling my drinks Driving myself to do it myself Broken of heart and filled to the brim But that’s not how it went... I lose myself in this memory game Trying to shape the past into a different kind of pain To suit the story as years and I change I lose the past and myself on the way
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The spring just didn’t start Winter’s breath lingers on the lips Where they kissed the skin Was burned and bruised But this morning the water started to run It still runs cold but as if there’s a purpose To wake up the ever clouded mind And though the feet were paralyzed More warmth is ever flowing Maybe today you start the fight Against the bitter cold The one you’ve always known The pain is everywhere around And still inside you But this time may you learn One or more things about The fear you’re carrying on Before you embrace it once again It’s been warmer for a week And still your feet haven’t taken to run And though the clock’s still turning There’s weeks and weeks to try them Every step takes you further from the void
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Unsure how the finish the page There should be more words To explain Maybe the guilt wasn’t justified May be that all this pain has been for nothing Nursing the precious wounds While the time goes on And the scars are fading Unsure how to prepare myself For the emptiness after this closure Take a look at yourself from the best of times And still you can't feel any drop of pride How bitter should you be That no one remembers That world has moved on And after all this time... Time does not heal But the distance it draws The scars unremarkable After all these years You now have nothing To show, to be proud about Not a thing

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The third release under Days of Light. Drawing a bit less from death and doom, and more from 80's hard rock and heavy metal, there's still plenty of driven fuzz and demented wailing. Production echoes the shifting anxieties in the soul, manifesting in more reserved production values. As a record should have, the songs wear their idiosyncrasies proud. Depression gives some way for anger and focus, maybe slightly more sober takes on personal failure and this shame of existence. There might even be a little hope for approaching days of light.

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released May 1, 2018

Miika Keskimäki - Writing, Recording, Production

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